Wheel of Confusion

The sky feels so heavy
I can't lift it's weight
What I thought to be heaven
Turned out to be chains
What I thought to be balance
Was just another structure
I now see disolving in thin air
What I thought to be real
Was too good to be real
What I thought was a bad dream
Turned out to be real
I have another turn
On this wheel of confusion
And I lose everything
Again. And again. And again.
The sense of humiliation
The sensation of asphyxiation
That's real.
It stays with me when the reality
Comes crashing in.
I am a waste of stardust
Of energy
Of time
Of space.