HEI!

Kuinka tahtoisinkaan
potkia naamasi sisään.
Kostaa sinulle kaiken sen
mihin et tiennyt syyllistyväsi.
Kaiken sen, mitä teit hänelle.
Vaikka en edes tunne sinua,
tahtoisin juottaa sinulle bensaa
tai ihan mitä tahansa palavaa
polttaa sinut sisältä
ja kuunnella huutojasi
kunnes kuolet.
t: humanisti.

Only The Shit Counts.

This all serves a purpose.
Every single word matters
More than anything I have
Ever written
Because it's all about the context
The contrast.
You need to write a lot of shit
To make your brilliance shine through.
And in the end
The shitty ones
Are the ones they praise
While your brilliance
Is left to rust in
Peace.

Path of Hurt

I regret nothing
But I wish I could change everything
I wish I had a checkpoint
I wish I could go back and say
"yeah I think you're nice too,
but we'd just end up hurting sooner than later.
So I wish you all the best. I wish you'll find someone better
I wish you'll get better. You deserve a human being.
Not "this." "
I wish I would have done it
While it still didn't hurt us both.
Before we got hooked.
I never wanted to hurt you
And I already have
There is no bigger sin
Than turning one against oneself
Making one hate oneself.
And to that sin, I am guilty.
I wish I could stop hurting us.
But I love you too much.
And my existence is percieved
Through the path of hurt.

Wheel of Confusion

The sky feels so heavy
I can't lift it's weight
What I thought to be heaven
Turned out to be chains
What I thought to be balance
Was just another structure
I now see disolving in thin air
What I thought to be real
Was too good to be real
What I thought was a bad dream
Turned out to be real
I have another turn
On this wheel of confusion
And I lose everything
Again. And again. And again.
The sense of humiliation
The sensation of asphyxiation
That's real.
It stays with me when the reality
Comes crashing in.
I am a waste of stardust
Of energy
Of time
Of space.